Kristen's Blog

When I look back at my life, I visualize the poem, Footprints. At the lowest moments of my life, I was always wondering where Jesus had went; however, unknowingly to me, He was with me the entire time. He carried me through some very rough times in my life. Through my blogs, I would like to share with you how the power of Jesus Christ has changed my life. Through my testimony, I pray that you will be changed too.

I started my life out as a child not truly knowing the love of a father. You see, my dad left my mom, my sister and me when I was 5 years old. He was, nonetheless, in my life for brief moments until he married my stepmom when I was 11 years old. After that time, the visits became even fewer and fewer. Today, I do not have a relationship with my earthly father. He has abandoned me and will not have any contact with me.

While I did not have my biological father growing up, I did have my “dad,” my mom’s second husband. My mom married him when I was 8 years old and he was a true blessing in my life. I loved him very much and he considered me to be his flesh and blood. He loved me just as much as I loved him. I was “daddy’s girl!” Unfortunately, when I was 18 years old, he had a brain stem stroke. This was a huge devastation for me in my life. I finally had a father in my life and then he was taken away. He lived on earth for 10 more years after his stroke, but could not walk and his speech was impaired. I no longer had my father but a man trapped in a bed so desperately seeking life.

I married a year later and eventually had children. My marriage was very shaky and it seemed as if my husband and I were going in separate directions. We had numerous struggles and many I will discuss with you in later blogs. Thank God, I can say today that we have a very strong marriage and this is only by the grace of God.

While my dad was trapped in his bed and my grandmother was in her late 80’s, my mom cared for them in her home. One night my mom awoke to a fire in the kitchen. She went for help and when she tried to get back in the house to get my father out, it was too late. My grandmother and father passed away in that house fire. This was the turning point of my life. At this moment, I truly believed that God did not love me and if He was any type of true God he would not have allowed this to happen. I questioned God so many times. Why God, why? Why in the world would he allow my father and grandmother to die in such a tragic way? This is where my journey with God begins.

While that night my father and grandmother passed away I did not believe God was with me, but He was. He was carrying me through my sorrow and tears. I would not have kept my sanity had it not have been for the grace of God. Friends, we serve a loving God that will always be there for us in times of heartache and trouble. He loves me and He loves you. He wants to carry you through your times. We just have to be willing to allow Him to carry us. I ask you, are you willing to allow God to carry you through your rough times?

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